Where I Belong / Chapter Three

Chapter 3

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I was taking care of the household including baby Tessa. Libby had started working more hours and was away from the house constantly. With no help from dad, and school, work and Will; my stress level was rising. I wasn’t sure how much longer I could last doing it all.I found out just how far I was stretching myself the next week. I got an F on my English report.

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I tried to talk to Marci about all the stress I was having, but she was still upset at me about not telling her Will and I were an item first. Since I was in mostly senior level classes I only had one course with Marci. And it didn’t give me much time to try to apologize, besides she wasn’t accepting it.

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Will and I were still great, but I could tell he was annoyed at only spending time with me at my job, or at my house while I took care of a baby. It seemed like there was never time for us to just be alone. I decided to surprise him with a nice dinner and walk one night.“I know that we haven’t gotten to spend much time together lately…,” I started to apologize to Will. “Brett, anytime I spend with you is wonderful. I understand that you are under a lot of pressure lately. I’m not looking to add to it.,” He said sweetly. “Thank you for understanding. It’s just been so difficult,” I said. He shushed me with a tender kiss.“My sister told my parents about you,” Will began. “And I’ve been spending so much time with you. They want to meet you. Do you think you can get free for a few hours this Sunday night for dinner?” Will asked me nervously. Meet his parents? Parents had always made me a little nervous since I hadn’t grown up in a traditional family. “Sure,” I said. “do I need to bring anything or where anything special?,” I asked. “Nope, just be your wonderful self,” He said and pulled me into him to snuggle.

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No doubt about it I was really nervous about meeting Will’s parents. All I knew about his family was that they were very wealthy, they were known around town to throw very elaborate dinner parties. I wanted to look nice, I decided I needed an expert. I knew she was mad. But I picked up Tessa and headed straight to Marci’s house. When I got there I thought she was going to shoo me away. But she smiled and invited us both in.

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Pretty soon we were laughing and having a good time just like we use to. “I’m so nervous about this dinner with his parents, what if they don’t like me?” I asked Marci. “Brett, they will like you. Everyone likes you, your like so sweet its annoying,” She said to me as she a walked to her closet to pick out some clothes for me.

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“I’m really sorry about not telling you about Will first,” I began. “Things have just been so crazy with the baby and all the other stuff I do,” I said and looked down. “Don’t worry about it, I think I was just jealous. I guess I always thought I’d have a serious boyfriend before you,” Marci said in calm tone. “I’m really happy for you though,” She continued and gave me a hug. By the time I left Marci’s I felt 100 times better. Unfortunately Tessa was being very fussy and she spit up on my outfit.  I had to change in a rush before I headed to Will’s.

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I got to Will’s house and found him checking the mail. I went to join him. “You ready for this?” He asked me nervously. This can’t be a good sign I thought to myself. “Yep” We headed to his house.

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We were greeted by his sister Giselle. I had seen her around school. She hung out with that pretty, rich crowd who were not so nice to me. But she seemed very friendly and asked me a lot about myself. She seemed really interested in getting to know me.

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We went to the dining room and Will introduced me to his parents Edwin II & Bunny Lockwood. I was in awe of how many beautiful things they had in their house. “You have a very lovely home,” I said to his parents. I never did get a response. We sat down, and began dinner with the salad course. “So Edwin tells us you’re very smart” Edwin II said. “I wouldn’t say that,” I said nervously.  “Yes you are Brett, you are taking mostly all senior level classes,” Will said coming to my defense. “Well is that true?” Edwin II asked sternly. “yes,” I said shyly. This only got worse from there. His parents drilled me on what my father did, where I live, my sister. I let it slip that she had a baby at fourteen and I could tell they didn’t like me.

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After dinner we headed to the television room to watch a movie. I somehow ended up sitting by Will’s mother and the interaction continued. “So Brett, have you thought about college? Edwin will be going off to college next year you know,” She said.  “Yes I know, I haven’t schedule any college visit yet but I will do that soon,” I said.

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I looked at Will for support, but he was engrossed in the television show.She kept asking question after question. I couldn’t even tell you what show we were watching. It seemed only Will and Giselle got to actually look at it.

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I was getting very annoyed. “So are you friends with Celeste Hart at all?” Bunny asked. Finally I’d had enough. “No, I said. She isn’t a very nice girl,” I said angrily.“Well, we are good friends with her family and have always known her to be very nice,” Bunny said defensively. Will poked the side of me. Now he wanted to come to my defense, I thought to myself, how annoying.“excuse me children, I have some things to get done,” Bunny said in a rush. “It was nice meeting you Brett,” Then she walked away. We all sat in silence for the next twenty minutes.

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Finally Will walked me out. “I think that went horribly,” I said to him. “It wasn’t so bad,” He said in a strange tone. But I could tell he though the same thing.“I’ll see you tomorrow at school,” Will said to me. “Your not coming over tonight?” I asked. “I’ve got a lot of things to get done, but I’ll see you tomorrow,” And then I was outside of the door. As I got into my car I realized Will had not even given me a kiss goodbye.

Will’s Point Of View

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I walked outside to find Giselle and I sat down. “So what do you think about that?” I asked her nervously. “It was pretty awful,” She said sadly, knowing exactly what I was talking about. “I don’t know what to do, I wanted to invite her to the dinner party next week but I don’t think she’ll be to comfortable,” I said to Giselle, referring to Brett. “Yea, maybe invite someone else. I really like her but I do think she would be uncomfortable,” Giselle replied.

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When I got home I told Libby all about the dinner. “Well Brett I don’t know what to tell you, that is just rich people for you,” She said; as she put Tessa in her crib. “But I really really like him, I don’t want this to be something that comes between us,” I said to Libby. “Then don’t let it,” she replied back. Maybe she was right.

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The next day at school Will was distant. I went to work at the library and he never showed up to study and hang out with me.

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I didn’t have too much time to think about it. I was still working hard, taking care of everyone and feeling very alone. The late night wake up calls from Tessa were making me so tired during the day.  My sleep schedule was very off.

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After getting Tessa back to sleep Libby and I headed downstairs to get a snack. “I’ve decided I’m quitting school,” Libby said and stared at me for a reaction. “Libby, I don’t think that is a good idea. You need to stay in school and go to college so you can provide for yourself and Tessa,” I said sternly.  “I’ve already made the decision, I just wanted to tell you. My birthday is in a few weeks so I’ll be able to and I’m doing it then. Working full time will be a lot better for Tessa and I. I know what’s best,” She said calmly. There was no arguing with her. She was going to do what she wanted to do. I needed to focus on myself.

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A few days later I got another surprise while eating with dad. “Brett, I want to say that I am sorry for being an absent father to you all these years,” my father said. Where was this coming from? Was he drunk? “I’ve joined a new 24 step program and I’m changing my life around. No more drinking, I’m going to take control of my life. I want to thank you for all that you have done during this time of while I was absent but I have it from here,” He stated. “I’m very proud of you dad,” I said. Because I didn’t know what to say. But I figured his sobriety wouldn’t last for long, he had tried to quit drinking more then once.

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But I was wrong, there was suddenly a change in his appearance. He sold the bar in our living room to buy Libby a car and a new television. He started hanging out with people his age. Since I was young I had never seen him with one friend, and now he seemed to have several. They were all in his group. It all seemed to happen so fast. I no longer was responsible for the bookkeeping, cleaning and cooking. I had a lot more free time. But I wasn’t spending it with the one person I wanted to.

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Will and I went from spending everyday together to just hanging out once or twice a week. And when I did see him he no longer wanted to take me out, he just wanted to hang out on my couch watching sports. I figured he could have done that without me. But I really did love our times together, even if I could tell he was distracted. The truth was, I was head over heals in love with him. And it was a scary feeling. It was my hope that he would talk to me about whatever was on his mind so we could get back to being great.

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I couldn’t have predicted what was going to happen next. It was a typical night in the library. I was catching up on schoolwork since things were a bit slow. When Marci rushed in. I could tell by the look on her face that something was wrong. “What’s wrong, Marc?,” I questioned. “I want to be the first one to tell you this. I don’t want you to here it from someone else. But I overheard Celeste and her little followers talking about some date she had with Will,” Marci stated and stared at me for a reaction. My heart sank. “What?” I said to her in disbelief. “I really hate telling you this Brett, believe me. But it’s true, they made sure I could here them too. They also dropped this picture,” Marci said getting agitated.

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She handed it to me. Up front was a picture of Brittney Ross and a boy I had never seen holding hands, they were smiling. But in the background of the picture  there was Celeste and Will. The way his arms were around her made me sick. I felt my breathing becoming irregular. I looked closer, they were at Wills house. And the worst part, the date stamp on the picture said it was just taken four days ago. I felt faint.

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